Day 1: Me and Katie have finally arrived in Georgia. After 3,200 miles, visiting 5 World Racers, 1 car wreck, and the many gas station stops we made it. I’m still in shock of what I have decided to do.
Day 2: I met the crazies that I will be doing life with for the next 3+ months. It’s at that awkward forced joy part of our relationship but these people seem so solid.
Day 8: Yesterday I spent 24 hours by myself. I have never done anything like that before but it is very close to being indescribable. It was as though I was awakened from my stupor and I was hearing the Lord again.
Day 16: Me, Drea, Erika, and Piva left for D.C. to see our beautiful Squad Leader get married. Leaving was a huge relief because I already needed a break from all of the things. I’m starting to think that this might be too much for me. There has been an incredible amount of work that has stretched me beyond my limits. But there has also been an unstoppable flow of love from everyone here.
Day 21: I went to my first ever baseball game. I didn’t have to pay a cent for it as well. It’s funny how many international experiences I have in comparison to American experiences.
Day 24: We all did a housewarming party for one of the new CGA houses. It’s a double-wide trailer. And we have named it the Mansion. This party has reflected what true community is. Where apprentices, staff, and even the neighbors came by to enjoy each others company. It was beautiful.
Day 32: Worship Track has been doing some insane crap to me. It’s been so hard but really good. I’ve decided to be a little more vulnerable and I’m curious as to what’s to come from it. Good or bad?
Day 38: Training Camp is here and I’m filming the new E Squad. I smell redemption.
Day 64: Truth has been rained down on me and I don’t know how to handle it. Can it be possible that the things spoken over me this last year were actually lies?
Day 72: God has shown me that I’m gifted in worship. I kind of believed it but not until this day. When I found freedom and ease in worshipping in Lord.
Day 87: Being sick for 10 days was not fun. I didn’t go anywhere for Thanksgiving but I would much rather miss a holiday than not go to AIM for a week. I’ve gained a lot of knowledge and affirmation in the daily things.
Day 93: After telling myself for 3 months that I don’t have any close friends, that stupor was shattered. As much as I don’t like the physical forests and 95% humidity in Georgia, I’m glad I left Oregon. It takes a lot for me to say that because of how much I love Oregon. Oregon is what I will always see as my first home. But this is my new one.
Day 98: After receiving the word from God that he is done chopping things off of me I am so incredibly relieved. It was like that time when I was relieved of Squad Leading. Because it has been so hard. Insanely good, but hard. I am ready for the next season.
Day 99: I am going to see my family tomorrow for Christmas. It’s bitter-sweet. Because I’m returning in 16 days to pursue another track of Leadership. I finally feel ready for it. I know that it is my calling to be a leader. God has painted the most beautiful picture. And it is because of this amazing group of weirdos. These people who have told me everyday how amazing I am. They bought me coffee and biscuits. They prayed over me and gave me feedback when I didn’t want to be vulnerable. And when I finally accepted how powerful vulnerability is I understood the power that each of these people wield. Thank you God for one unbelievable season.
